A to Zs

IF A to Z...or TTC A to Z (which ever you prefer)

Borrowing this from my friend over at Fertility Frustration. :) Also, a BIG thanks to her for all her support and the reward she bestowed upon me recently. I forgot to post about that. 

Anyways....here we go...

A. Age when you started TTC: 24ish

B. Baby Dancing or Sex: I'm not sure what the difference is because they are both about the same thing. :) But sometimes it was baby dancing but most of the time it's just sex. Seeing as that isn't how we're going to get pregnant, calling it baby dancing isn't very accurate.

C. Children wanted: I say 2 because I only have 1 sibling. Hubby has said 3 because he is the baby of 3. Our opinions on this might change while we go through this. I don't think either one of us want our 2 or 3 all at the same time...but God knows best. I hope he doesn't give us more than we can handle. :) I also just hope he blesses us with at least one happy, healthy little girl or boy. Not sure I could handle the alternative (of not having any).

D. Dogs/Cats/Fill in Children:  We have 2 wiener dogs. I hope they don't freak out when we have kids. They are a little spoiled. :)

E. Essential Oils/Vitamins/Snake Oils: Just prenatals right now. RE hasn't said anything about other stuff yet.

F. Fertility Meds I’ve taken: Clomid and HCG trigger for IUIs, Now I'm taking Menopur and Follitism for IVF stimulation. And then LOADS more coming. Stay tuned.

G. Gain: I hope it's not a lot of weight gain! :( But perspective is something that has been gained through this experience. Patience and acceptance, faith, etc. I have gained a friend or two to talk to about this and knows firsthand how it is to go through IVF. That's been a HUGE help.

H. HSG (Hystosalpingogram): This HURT really bad but I got an A+ so that was  good. It was kinda interesting to see my fallopian tubes and uterus though. Not happy that it hurt though.

I. Infertile Pet Peeves: Being told that "it will happen" or "it will happen when you stop trying" or "if it's meant to be, it will be." I'm sure there are more but that's good for now.

J. Job title: Substitute teacher and soon to be camp counselor. Yup, I like kids. :)

K. Kid’s names you’re afraid will be taken by the time you can use them: I do feel that it's important to respect your close friends and close family with not using the name unless you ask them...but so far that hasn't been an issue. I am not 100% sure of any name so I can't say that I can truly answer this one.

L. Length of time TTC: Summer of 2008 we stopped using any birth control so I consider that as when we started. It wasn't until last summer that we found out about our IF issues and were referred to an RE. It's been a crazy roller coaster since.

M. Miscarriages: There was one particular time I thought it would have been but there's no way to tell. When I was "pregnant" after my first IUI and then it didn't stay, the nurses said it was not a miscarriage. So I don't consider it one either.

N. Number of times you’ve switched OB/GYNS, REs, FSs: 0. Same place this whole time.

O. Ovarian quality: Not sure...haven't been told anything was wrong or how good they are either.

P. POAS or wait for AF: Both. I've done the POAS before but I still have some because I found them to be pointless. There's no guarantee they will be correct so why bother torturing yourself? When I know it will turn pink or whatever, then maybe. I'd like to have a picture of it like a lot of people have.

Q. Quote from an obnoxious fertile: Nothing horrendous so far or I've already blocked it out.

R. Does anyone know what “R” stood for? I’ll go with reality: Reality is not your friend during TTC or IF. Knowing that your "plumbing" doesn't work like most people's is hurtful, disappointing, and frankly...heartbreaking. Your pride and ego take a beating because you took your fertility for granted. Many tears have been shed because of this...It is a harsh reality to be confronted with.

S. Sperm: Pretty good but not always consistent. They haven't said much about it though.

T. Time you tried naturally:  almost 2 years off and on. The not knowing what was going on with my body was torturous.

U. Uterus quality: Heard nothing but good things so far. :)

V. Vagina: It's there...that's about all I know. :)

W. What baby stuff do you already have?: I have a few things here and there. They've been pieces of hope throughout this journey. Not to sound weird or anything but I carried a baby sock in my purse for awhile. Now I feel like I don't want to jinx things but that ship may already have sailed.

X. X-tra X-tra Hear all about it! How many people know the ins and outs of our crazy TTC journey? I'm beginning to think too many people know. How do you "untell" people or dodge the "are you pregnant?" question when you hopefully have something good to tell but want to wait?

Y. Yearly Exam (do you still go in even though someone sees your lady parts most months?): I've sadly only gone once and look what happened?! But with all the poking and prodding done there, it's not at the top of my To Dos...I know, I'm bad.

Z. Zits: Yeah...lovely little things saying hi as they sprout on your chin. Usually they are worse when I am getting my period. Let's just say that this week...my face knew I was getting my period. Boo.