Just a quick update today because not a whole lot has happened. My levels DID rise, shockingly. I was at 27 on Friday morning. So...getting there but not right where I want to be. Plus, the bleeding worries the doctor too. Heck, it worries me enough it should worry SOMEONE else too! Geez!
So I am going again on Monday morning for another beta test. I am hoping that my bleeding is going to stop soon. It's much, much less today. Cross your fingers it is done!
I'm still in the same place I was before...not knowing and still worried and confused. Sure, I am supposed to act like I'm pregnant (because I technically am) but it's soo heartbreaking to know it could end at any moment.
Just BAM....sorry, no more embryo.
I really should stop going online and researching things or looking up when the baby could be due. I get a mix of responses. May 17-20th is the current due date(s) courtesy of several due date calculators. According to some other calculators...I am between 5 and 6 weeks along. And thanks to a "how big is baby" ticker...the baby is about the size of an appleseed.Whoa.
Did I say whoa? Because I mean...WHOA....
And again, why do I do this to myself? I don't know if it's going to be viable or going to continue...so why do I torture myself with this?!
Maybe it's the thin shred of hope I have still that maybe it will be all fine....
Stay tuned....
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