Do you ever feel like you're about to get bad news? Or that you are about to have your heart broken? You want to suppress it, make it go away, clean the house to distract yourself, sleep until it's over, etc...
That's kinda how I feel right now. Besides being completely exhausted and somewhat lighthearded/dizzy today...I feel like there is impending doom on the horizon.
The music of my life's soundtrack is playing an ominous tune so I know I should close my eyes and wait til it stops. That's what I do at a scary movie but I can't really do that right now.
Have you ever wanted something SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO badly that you thought about it, prayed about it, wished for it, hoped it would happen....and then it didn't?
Yeah, I hate that feeling too.
I just keep telling myself that it's only our first time and the chances are slim. So I guess there's always October. Right?
Sorry to be more depressing than uplifting....but I am about to pass out and should have picked sleep over writing. lol
Good night...
Update will either be over the weekend or possibly not til Monday...kinda depends on what happens.
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Dear Baby,
If you're ready...than I am too.
love,
Mommy xoxo
I found your blog on the forum and I just want you to know that I am following your story. I am in my 2WW, it's definately not easy. I am dreading next Sunday because that's when I am to test and I am so worried that it will be a BFN. Good luck as you begin your next one. It will happen. Our doctor told us that we have a 1% chance of getting pregnant each month and I have had two pregnancies, one ending with a beautiful little girl and the other was an early mc. But I am hopeful since I have had had two. Good Luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I hope you get a BFP! Thanks for the support on the site as well as hope. :)
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