Dead End on the Broken Road

I honestly don't have much in me right now to do a whole blog. I will say though that our 3rd IUI has failed.

On Tuesday we have a meeting with the doctor to see if we skip the last IUI and go straight to injectables or IVF.

I did make a quick call before the tears started coming to the insurance people. After talking to 3 people, they told me that there wouldn't be a copay for IVF but they won't know how much the meds will cost until they know what kinds, dosage, and how frequent I'd take them (3 per month etc).

So I guess I'm calling them again on Tuesday after the meeting.

I hope it's still possible to have our own children. I know DH is afraid of multiples but  at this point...I'm more afraid of not having even one.

We're not against adopting but we'd like to exhaust all of our other possibilities first.

Then there's the small possibility that we'd need either a donor egg or a donor sperm. I'm not basing this off anything the doctor has said but it's still something to think about.

This broken road is so, so much harder than I could have ever imagined. And I have no idea why....

Why us? Why any of you?

I just don't get it.