Apparently it's been so long since I've been to my doctor's office that a parking garage has been built. lol It's not totally done but still....It was less than a hole the last time I was there.
They also changed some paperwork stuff, etc. The biggest thing to me was how we find out our results. We used to call in to a voicemail type of system. They would leave you your results and instructions for later. Now, it's all online.
Nifty. Not really...since you need IE version 7 or higher...which is only accessed at home. So even though the results are still entered by 3, I won't get them to much, much later.
I did check it though...and it is kinda cool. I just won't like having to log on and all that mumbo jumbo when sometimes I don't want to look at my computer. Oh well.
My instructions were to come back for blood work again next Wednesday or whenever I get my period.
There was no scrolling banner reading YOU ARE PREGNANT!!! YAY!!! or anything.
Actually it said that it looks like I'm going to ovulate soon so I need to come back in. Um...what happened to my other follicle??
And why do I feel like I've had PMS forever and a day? And did I sleep through my period...because oh yeah...I didn't get it. I guess I could send a response asking why I didn't get my period but they don't know...so they don't speculate.
Unless there was some other reason to deal with it. The HCG was not positive though...if I read that correctly.
So my body is confusing...no surprise there.
When most people miss their period by 3 WHOLE WEEKS, usually that means they are preggers.
But not me....nope...I get to sit and stew some more.
The good news is though ...hopefully this means we are closer to doing out FET which is what we were going for in the first place.
Due to work issues and insurance, etc....this may be our last attempt for awhile. A long while. And PLEASE do not say that "maybe it will happen on its own".
I think even Hubs wanted us to be pregnant on our own. He thought that would be kinda ironic...but it looks like that's not the case.
Overall, disappointing....as usual. BUT not a lose-lose situation because we're still aiming at getting this figured out.
I just feel like I'm losing hope that it will ever work though.
Some days I even think that maybe it's not such a big deal if we don't have kids. Then I smack myself and look into my heart...knowing that it is a huge deal.
HUGE.
I'm not giving up....I'm not giving up....
I hate that you are having to play the waiting game. It sucks to not have any answers. I hope that everything moves along quickly for this FET. I know that feeling, sometimes, of wondering if maybe not having kids is okay. And then that stone in your chest that brings you quickly back to reality.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and positive vibes across the blogosphere.
Jo
This is just so unfair. I can't believe you have to go through all of this after all the hoops you've jumped through already. I hope things fall into place sooner rather than later...MUCH MUCH SOONER!!
ReplyDeleteAnd it is HUGE. I'm happy to hear you're not giving up!! We're all out here praying and hoping for you too!! Thinking of you!
Thank you both so much!! I can't even express how much your positivity and kind words helps me get through this.
ReplyDeleteIt sucks. But at least I have a support system I can go to when needed. Thank you!