Sunday

I guess my previous post was a little melodramatic. In my defense though I was quite upset. A lot happened in just a few days but I wasn't ready to sit down and type it all out.

Again our insurance was an issue but it shouldn't have been. If everyone did their jobs like they are suppose to, we wouldn't have had a week or "what the hell is going on?" AGAIN with our insurance.

So everything is looking fine now...finally. Now we just wait for my period.

I'm sure the dirty diaper will hit the fan at work though when they realize that now I am back to needing appointments and things. It's been about a month since I've had much to do with it...So they probably won't be too happy but oh well.

Remember..THEY required me to have an accommodations form filled out...which now states that I need to be allowed appointments, etc.

The one boss lady just left on Friday to go to a different center so I'm hoping the other 2 will be nice enough and understand.

Of course though one of them asked me outright this week (after the shit hit the fan) if I was staying there after the summer. I said I didn't know what was going to be available. She asked if we were trying to have a baby. Hubs and I had a fight the night before and with the insurance...it wasn't looking good. So I told her that. I didn't deny it because they probably looked up what kind of doctor was on the form. Infertility is probably a dead giveaway.

So then I mentioned something about moving but everything was up in the air. In the end, I told her that it was just not a good day to ask. I was already having a bad day and didn't know what was going on with ANYTHING in life...and of course she asks me that day. She was nice enough to say she'd ask about it later.

To make things worse, I thought I was just having crazy PMS but it turns out I also had strep. Yay for me. So on this beautiful weekend, I've been stuck at home trying to get better so that I can work this week. Ugh. It never ends.

Part of why I'm a big kid at heart is that I just don't like being a grown up sometimes. It sucks. So I will hold on to whatever I can for being a kid as long as I possibly can. If I'm 80 yrs old and STILL like cartoons and Disney shows...that's okay with me.

Life is very unpredictable at times and that is just how it is. I just hope Hubs' bending over backward to do his part in helping us have a baby doesn't turn out to be for nothing.

True, the opportunity to try is something but it's not the same as actually having some success.

Life is going to drastically change for us in the next few months because of a lot of things. But I hope with every shred of positivity in my soul that those 2 snowbabies thaw and grow and become our happy, healthy babies.

On a side note, if you have an iphone or Droid type of phone, Hubs has a game called Globs on there now that you can download. I think it's only 99 cents. When he originally made that game a few years ago, he dedicated it to me. :) Now it's a little different because he had help making the app, but it's still the same premise.

:) Gotta love shameless plugs. lol


Anyways, I'm going to SMILE and hope that there's no where to go but up. :)