Real Quick Rant

Thank you for the support. I really do appreciate it. I am starting to deal with it a bit better than I was a week ago. I am still very disappointed in myself and the situation. Everything was lined up to work...and it still didn't.

We meet with the RE on Tuesday...so we will know where we stand. Insurance issues should be okay...thanks to the hubby for trying to make it happen. Not 100% though.

I am hoping the RE says to try to do the FET. I guess he could say to wait awhile though too...I just don't know.

To top it off, my new work (that I loathe) wants me to get a disability form signed and filled out by the doc if I'm going to need more appointments etc.

UGH. I know they don't know what's going on but they like to throw in my face that I told them  2 months ago that I would be done. Well...it didn't work. Do you think I can foresee the future and know that? NO.

The hard time they are giving me isn't helping...and I am fairly sure that the crazy amount of work I did while I was on my 2ww did not help matters. For that, I feel so guilty.

I took this job thinking I could go to pregnancy appointments (should it work) and it would be okay. Well, I had to get permission to leave early for the appt on Tues and had mentioned some other days a few weeks ago. The one director thought they were related (hence the special disability note) and said that the other director would be pissed.

Really?! For taking a day off or leaving an hour early???

But I said that they were unrelated and the nicer of the two actually said, "You have other things going on?"

What am I supposed to say to that? "DUH I have a life!" but I said something a little bit more appropriate.

Either way, I've already had 2 times where I thought they were thinking of letting me go. When the head director (the less nice of the two) told me about the disability form, she was saying how this position is 40 hrs a week and if I will have all of these things going on then they need to figure out how to fill that position.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I've wanted to quit from the first day I started. The IRONIC part is that the day before all of this, I was actually starting to think I could stick it out for a little while longer for the money and stuff. But then God sent me a little note...

Clearly I am not suppose to work here. I knew it from the beginning. I was going to quit on the 27th but I didn't go to work because I was sick...and then either Tues or last Fri. But when this medical issue came up AGAIN...I thought perhaps this is my way out. But the irony of my life will be that my RE will say to wait awhile...leaving me without that reason. I guess we'll know in a few days.

That way I don't have to tell them that I HATE it there..etc. It will be for medical reasons. And that will be true. I will just leave out the part about them being crazy, unorganized, etc.

:)

Okay, well since I unfortunately have to go back there in 7 hours, I better get some sleep.

Thanks for listening to me vent.

Night.