May the Odds Be Ever In My Favor

Hello...

I'd like to say that I've been super busy and that's why I haven't blogged but that's only partially true. Avoidance and procrastination are probably more to blame.

Thursday was my retrieval. Only 8 eggs this time. One of my ovaries wasn't responding as well or as fast as the other. That was a bit of a let down. We found out that 5 fertilized...Again, the numbers weren't great. Last time we had 13 eggs, 9 fertilized and 4 embies.

We actually don't know how many embies made it over the weekend. All I know is that the plan is to do 2 tomorrow. Hubs and I have decided though that if we have 1, 2, or 3, we're doing all of them. If we have 4, we will transfer 2 and freeze 2. If we have 5, transfer 3, freeze 2. So we have a plan but we don't know what we're working with right now.

I understand some of their reasoning for not knowing...but it will have to be a decision tomorrow instead of one in advance. Hopefully all goes well and we can transfer 3 and freeze 2.

I am a realist though..sometimes... lol So I am hoping at least 2 have been growing like rock stars. Anything more than is a total bonus.

I decided to start acupuncture this time around because I know some people who have had success with it. I wanted to start earlier in the cycle but due to money and scheduling, it didn't work out. Plus, I totally forgot how (somewhat) fast the shots and stuff go.

So my first time was on Saturday. I REALLY like the acupuncturist lady. I think she is super cool and compassionate. She's on your side and wants to help you. I told her I already had the retrieval and was going to have the transfer. Just so happens it was going to occur on days she doesn't work (day before transfer and day of transfer) but she offered to come to my house or meet me at the office. We both live 45 min away or so from the office. I told her no to the home thing because my dogs would go nuts.

But how many times has someone in her position said she'd come on a day she's not working just for YOU?

Yeah, not many.

Anyways, the first time wasn't bad. I only felt a few pricks but they didn't hurt. Just the initial sting. I actually felt kinda good. But as soon as she left me alone...

I started crying.

Now I know that I am on Crinone gel and my hormones have been out of whack...but there was just a huge amount of emotion that came out.

Hubs and I have been doing the shots and I've been going to my appts. My one hand looked like a pin cushion for awhile...and I haven't really let the emotions surrounding all of this hit me. Oh but it hit me that day.

Acupuncture on Saturday kinda felt like a last ditch effort or something out of desperation but it's really not. I can't think of it like that.

So today I found out that the transfer is tomorrow (Tues) and called K's cellphone. She called me back and made arrangements to meet me. And we also made an appt for tomorrow too. She's planned on being at the office so she's ready for me to get there...early or later than expected.

How fricking nice is that?!

There's no guarantee that this will work but I am hoping it does! You never know... :)

I'm feeling more optimistic. She's even excited for me.

Wish me luck, baby dust, and sticky vibes for tomorrow. I'd appreciate it!

I can't type anymore because I'm getting a cramp. I don't like typing in laptop keyboards....

Anyways,

Best Baby wishes to you all.

Love,
TheMrs