Why Did I Shave My Legs For This?

The subject might refer to country singer Deana Carter's song but it actually had real life meaning today. Today was our 2nd consultation with the RE. So I made sure to shave my legs and such, anticipating my third vaginal ultrasound. To my relief, I didn't have one. We only talked to the doctor for a short time and then the nurse. That was it!

Now...had I NOT shaved my legs, I probably would have had an ultrasound. That's irony for you.

Either way, today we found out the next step. The next step comes with a 14 page packet. INSERT WIDE EYED LOOK HERE.

I always talk faster and start to panic at this point, which I did today. It's just SO much information...and it might not even work the first time. Or the second. Or the third. Or the fourth.

So we are putting our fertility lives in this man's hands....and I am scared.

I will start Clomid with my next cycle and then following a LOT of instructions, injecting myself with a shot of HCG, and then finally putting Hubby's sperm in my uterus (IUI).

Then we wait....

And if it doesn't work, then we do it again, and again....

It's not the needle or pills that worry me...it's the timing and blood tests and ultrasounds every other day. It's very involved.

I don't know how full time working women do it. Every thing is so planned and has to be perfectly executed.

I also have to get a Rubella vaccine even though I had it as a child. It came back equivocal so now I have to make an appointment ASAP with another doctor to get that done.

And what does Hubby have to do?

Deal with me.

I'm not sure who has it worse. LOL

It's just a scary journey that no one I know has gone though. Maybe they have but I didn't know it.

Having a baby used to be just making love with your hubby at the right time of the month.

Now it's become a clinical process.

But that baby will be no less loved or wanted...How he or she gets here is less important than his or her arrival. Whether he or she is conceived in a bed or with a little extra help won't make the baby any less amazing.

Let the craziness begin.... :)

For more information on IUI and Clomid go here....

IUI

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